i have been studying with the jw for just over 3 years.i have always believed in god and the bible.
the path my life took ended up with me being a single parent of 4 children.. the jws led me down the path of the "truth".
my grandmother disowned me and i just couldnt understand why.i was told that satan was lurking round every corner trying to get me away from god.
Welcome lunarlara!
Amen to the others.
Look at it this way:
You did them a huge favor by letting them in your home all this time so they didn't have to push doorbells outside.
All the invested "time" and everything else was duly recorded on their time slips.
That "counts" a lot.
You say you're "afraid" they will talk you out of it. Think about it.
Fear of being influenced against your expressed will can't be a good thing. IMO it's a sure sign...
feeling pretty smug.. a couple of months ago i cancelled my dd to the society.
i have since been waiting to be struck by lightening, but as that hasn't happened, and i do feel i want to donate something, but wanted this time to think more carefully about it.
today i decided on my charity and set up a dd.
geevee,
Seven months out for you evidently is a long time removed from the insanity that still goes on inside:
Not appearing at the KH since two weeks + coming memorial, combined with abruptly stopping my DD is tantamount to DA-ing.
Know what that means when your best friends and your family are all still inside..?
Besides, the word is already out and the bloodhounds have already picked up my scent: an off-the-cuff remark about the GB last week has already prompted someone to contact his/her PO who has promised that person to contact my PO - a guy who is after my blood anyway and who has proven to be a liar in the past, not hesitating to call the likes of me poison - all for exposing his lies and slander. Of course, I got burned badly then. Until you experience it first hand, you cannot imagine it.
You just cannot be straight with these guys... you'll only give 'm the satisfaction to cut off your head.
i am discovering a whole new way of life and thinking now that i have left the *truth*.
part of me still believes in some of the teachings, i just don't agree with the organization, its difficult to find amiddle ground, i just wondered what some of you have decided on, what your beleif system is now?
Welcome yosista and cantgetout, and thanks everybody for some great insights!
This thread reminds me of Samuel Beckett's "Waiting for Godot" - Godot did't come for us either as Beckett somehow already knew. The bOrg left many of us - including myself - "bewitched, bothered and bewildered" (as the song goes).
Believe what is true to yourself, the rest is Matrix - except for one thing: listen to Bach, and you'll know there is a God for sure.
Yep LDH!
Both ears were there all the time - Both eyes were missing for all this time though.
Popped them back in recently. Found them rolling around somewhere ever so close.... Just like you did yours...
Theo Vincent
feeling pretty smug.. a couple of months ago i cancelled my dd to the society.
i have since been waiting to be struck by lightening, but as that hasn't happened, and i do feel i want to donate something, but wanted this time to think more carefully about it.
today i decided on my charity and set up a dd.
I'm keeping my DD going for another 3/4 months (till the memorial) in order to keep them off my back while not showing up in the KH - concluding fading.
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i wonder what goes through the mind of old and sick jw' s who never thought the new system would be so far away....................................................................................
"I have even heard 2 of the GB express the desire to be alive on earth..............."
Interesting comment Blondie.
Their heavenly hope can't stand the test of time either, I guess.
Aren't some people predispositioned or otherwise susceptible to religious delusions and experiences like a so called anointing though...?
And if so, would their mental capabilities not be seriously impaired ...?
Vincent Theo
Thanks hideme. Guess for you too the little house on the prairie didn't turn out to be the safe house you - judging by you previous posts - probably always thought it was. Are you by any chance hiding in my (former) cong..? (I'm afraid I can't reveal here where that one is though.) Call me Theo if you like. Veel sterkte.
You are getting me quite worried here now greendawn... You reckon the Bay of Pigs invasion had anything to do with us..? Now, since they failed, would that actually explain what happened on that fateful 40th birthday I still wasn't celebrating back then..? Go figure. I'll have to check my armpits tonight for the Mark of the Beast. Let me get my Daniel book out now...
Any book can sell, provided it is well written and marketed. Rutherfraud was an extremely colorful and secretive character/protagonist, and as soon as the negative PR shit will hit the fan in Crooklyn sometime in the near future, your book will need to be ready and on sale. You will have to have written it by then in order to market it using the wave of publicity.
On some other thread here on JWD an interview between Dr. Jerry Bergman and a researcher was published. The researcher was writing a Phd or book on Haydon Covington. Bergman was treating Haydon Covington for depression, so knew him. HC must have known lots of secrets about The Judge he never disclosed after he was crucified by Knorr: he idolized the man and must have been like him a lot, at least in the liquor department. If a book on HC is viable, why shouldn’t one on JR be? Interestingly something was mentioned there about the Madison SG ruckus: According to HC, he hated Knorr for running from the fighting.
Many people like M. James Penton and Gruz must also have collected lots of stuff on The Judge. It's just a case of piecing it all together. Or someone might want to take it on as a Phd.
didn't know where to put this so i figured here was as good as anywhere.
if you don't like this location, go ahead and move it.. i was raised as a jw.
around 14 i stopped believing, for the most part.
Welcome to the board BB.
Many have compromised themselves and their consciences by hanging on after entering adulthood, They have become guilty by association, or even worse, true believers - like me - for one HALF of their lives. So I’m doomed to follow the course of peppermint to figure out where I went wrong – not only where my parents went wrong.
At least you had the character and guts (intelligence?) to take responsibility and make an unpopular decision.
(BTW, IMO, suicide does seem to be a JW trend.)
Hi Crumpet. Thanks for welcoming me.
Calling a lady crumpet without risking a slap in the face is new to me.
Always enjoy your posts, succinct indeed, though still colo(u)red with a cheerful touch of British warmth.
